i want to feel my bones on your bones

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Sun, 05 Jun 2011 00:02:53 -0400

"I'm not losing weight. I'm getting rid of it. I have no intention of finding it again"

Sun, 05 Jun 2011 00:00:36 -0400

I haven't given up!

Sat, 04 Jun 2011 23:59:56 -0400

I forget to post on tumblr a lot - but I definitely haven’t given up!

I had a bit of a bad day with food yesterday, but I’m not going to let that stop me!

I am determined, and I will do this!

I want to get my belly button pierced.

Sun, 29 May 2011 10:15:42 -0400

I always have. But I have never seen the point in getting it, if I can’t show it off.

Once I get to my goal weight, my reward to myself will be to get my belly button pierced.

29.05.11

Sun, 29 May 2011 03:36:00 -0400

Today has been a good day. I have had a whole bunch of energy that I’ve used to my advantage by doing about an hours worth of exercise :)

Breakfast - 1 cinnamon donut (340 cal)

Lunch - 250mL slimright chocolate shake (121 cal)

Snack - 1 cup of pineapple pieces (92 cal)

Dinner - Sweet/sour chicken with plain fried rice (400 cal, approx)

1 large fried dim sim (300 cal)

5 prawn crackers (100 cal)

200mL fanta (92 cal)

Total calories consumed - 1445

Exercise - Elliptical - 15 mins (51 cal burnt)

Treadmill - 50 mins (252 cal burnt)

Total calories burnt - 303

Will update this post after dinner :)

I have a goal!

Sat, 28 May 2011 23:01:42 -0400

So - I figured that I should make a goal of WHEN I want to lose the weight by.. Because I figured if I don’t have a time goal, then I’ll just keep putting it off..

My goal is my 21st birthday! Which is on the 27th September. I have approximately 17 weeks to lose 15kg. I think this is quite a reasonable goal.. in fact, I think if I work hard, I can do it before then!

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Sat, 28 May 2011 22:30:55 -0400

Don't turn a bad meal into a bad week. So you made a poor food choice. You're human. Don't give up and throw in the towel just because you overate. Jump right back into things at your next meal. No biggie.

Sat, 28 May 2011 22:19:26 -0400

elevatorprozac:

I think this is what I do a lot. I have one bad day and think, “i’ll start again next week”.

"Losing weight helps you look good in clothes. Exercising makes you look good naked."

Sat, 28 May 2011 22:19:23 -0400

“Losing weight helps you look good in clothes. Exercising makes you look good naked.”

- (via livemylove)

All 16-25 year old girls who are choosing to lose weight the HEALTHY way, reblog this because I'd love to follow every one of you.

Sat, 28 May 2011 03:37:04 -0400

28 may

Sat, 28 May 2011 01:24:39 -0400

breakfast - 1 plain white roll

lunch - 1 plain white roll

will edit later :)

may 27th

Fri, 27 May 2011 06:46:02 -0400

breakfast - none

snack - 1 medium sized easter egg

lunch - 2 sushi rolls (just rice + seasonings, and sushi paper)

snack - small handful of doritos with cheese; about 500mL coke zero

dinner - 4 dim sims with soy sauce

sup bro.

Thu, 26 May 2011 09:31:41 -0400

okay - so it’s definitely been a while since i’ve posted on here. i guess i kinda gave up for a little while there. how pathetic of me? after a week i was ready to pack it all in.

i was not raised to be a quitter. i was not raised to give up, until i was sure that i had given it my best. that’s not who i am.

i am not ready to quit smoking yet - that is one thing i will say. i think i need to focus on one thing at a time, and at the moment, i need to get my weight under control again.

in the last few weeks, i have gained a few kgs back, and i am not happy about that. so i really am going to try, as hard as i can to get down to a healthy weight.

i’m currently at about 89-90 kg. my goal at the moment is to get down to 80kg.

so lets see how that goes.

until next time,

kellie x

Day 07

Mon, 02 May 2011 08:41:31 -0400

Okay.. today’s been.. well.. an interesting day. I didn’t record what I ate.. my mind has been all over the place.

I thought finally losing weight would make me happy. I honestly thought that was the key to my happiness.

So why am I still so miserable? Why is it that with every kilo i manage to lose do I feel even worse about myself?

Every time I eat something, there’s a little voice in my head that runs wild, telling me how fat I am.. that i don’t need to be eating that..

I wish my perception of myself wasn’t so skewed.. I wish I could look in the mirror and see what everyone else apparently sees. :/

Sigh. I don’t know what to do. I’m not okay.

First weigh in! :D

Sun, 01 May 2011 18:23:57 -0400

So, as I said, I would way myself on a monday morning.

My current weight is 87kgs! which means I lost 2.5 kg this week, even with my bad eating >.>

That has just motivated me more to want to keep losing weight!

Wow.. 87kg.. I haven’t weighed under about 95kg since I was 10 or 11.. this is a huge accomplishment for me!

Until next time,

Kellie <3

Day 06

Sun, 01 May 2011 05:17:17 -0400

Breakfast:

2 pieces of multigrain toast with vegemite

Lunch:

nothing..

Dinner:

1/4 of a roast chicken

2 roast potatoes

1/2 cup of peas

1/2 cup of carrot

Dessert:

1 piece of chocolate cake

Cigarettes: 4

Exercise: yeah.. about that..

I’m finding it so hard to get motivated to get up and exercise.. I’m just so tired, all the time.. even when I do sleep. So yeah.. exercising is currently taking a back seat.. >.>

Day 04/Day 05

Sun, 01 May 2011 00:04:19 -0400

I didn’t forget about this - I was busy for most of the weekend so I haven’t on tumblr much! I did record everything though so here it is :) (must admit, had a pretty bad weekend for eating/exercising). Also, I don’t remember what time of the day I actually ate any of this, so i don’t know what I had or breakfast/lunch/dinner so It’s all just gonna be together!

Day 03

2 cheese/vegemite toasted sandwiches

1 small piece of chocolate cake

1 cupcake

1 weight watchers spag bol

Cigarettes: 5

Excercise: Does about 3 hours of being in the kitchen baking count?

Day 04

3 cupcakes

1 piece of chocolate cake

2 pieces of pizza

1 piece of multigrain toast

1/2 cup pumpkin minestrone soup

1 cup of milk tea

Cigarettes: I don’t know actually. I forgot to count >.>

Excercise: About 30 min walking

So.. I shouldn’t bake.. because it makes me eat what I baked.. BUT it kept me occupied for about 3 hours.. and tomorrow.. I weigh myself, see if my bad eating has affected my weight loss.

But later I will remember to post my food for the day!

until then,

Kellie. :)

mybodypeaceofmind: Ridiculous! They literally shaved off like,...

Thu, 28 Apr 2011 21:52:58 -0400

mybodypeaceofmind:

Ridiculous! They literally shaved off like, a quarter of her body.

I just wish every girl who strives to be like these skinny celebrities could see this…. because most of them are not as “perfect” as you think.

Seriously.. what was wrong with her before?

Day 03 - oops, forgot about this yesterday!

Thu, 28 Apr 2011 21:51:11 -0400

Breakfast:

big bowl of mixed vegetables

Lunch:

small bowl of nachoes

Dinner:

bowl of honey mustard chicken and rice

Dessert:

small piece of chocolate cheesecake

Snacks:

1 super dooper icy pole

1 sour cream and chive rice cake

about 600mL fanta

Cigarettes: 8

Exercise: Nothing.. oops. yesterday was a lazy day.

Day 02

Wed, 27 Apr 2011 04:28:00 -0400

Breakfast:

3 mini bite-sized sausage rolls

Lunch:

2 cheese toasties

600mL coke zero

Dinner:

2 medium sized pieces of crumbed fish

600mL fanta

Snacks:

1 medium easter egg

1/4 of a subway cookie

1/2 cup icecream

250mL passionfruit soft drink

Small handful of cheese and bacon shapes

Cigarettes: 12.. oops, i bought a packet.

Exercise: About an hour and a half walking around town

Conclusion for the day - I need to stop drinking so much soft drink, and definitely find healthier things to snack on!